The Sendaholic Diaries

Its a vagabond life for me! - 3 weeks in

So, 3 weeks ago was the official start of this trip that im on…I dont even know how to define what it is that Im doing, but essentially: I sold most of my belongings to go live on the road…right now Im on a summer long road trip with my friend up to her hometown in Washington (we left from AZ). We are both rock climbers and that is how we have been occupying most of our time.

But after that…who knows? Thats the whole point that Im aiming for, I want to just go with the flow, go wherever life takes me. I dont even know how long I plan on living like this or where Im going to end up…..and so far it has been one of the most liberating feeling that Ive ever had.

We spend most of our lives trying to figure out what job we are going to slave away at, who we are going to love, where we are going to live, etc…trying to plan out our future, but then sometimes we have a revelation, one that resonates within our inner most beings, and that is…you cant plan for the future. The future isnt real, it only exists inside your head. You dont know whats going to be important to you or what opportunities are going to present themselves in the future. You can try an guess, but thats all it is…its only a guess.

I try to deal primarily in the present moment, its kind of scary to live this way at first, but after you learn to let go of your false sense of control….you will see that it is way less scary then the old way of thinking. Way less scary than living a life filled with the stress and worry that is associated with trying to control that which cannot be controlled.

Ive known all this for a long time, I considered it a truth of the world…but only in my head. It wasnt until 3 weeks ago that I decided to take the necessary steps for me to internalize this mentality into every part of my being. All I can say so far is that Im loving every moment, there is nothing scary about living the life that you want to live…Im excited to see where this journey takes me.